Candy Low

Today I consumed an entire bag of Cookies n' Cream Kisses.

I feel gross.

I am tired.

I can't finish my harder workouts these days.

Why have I not learned?

I haven't gained any weight.

I haven't lost any weight.

I get frustrated at night because I have little energy.

Thus I am not a very good mom.

Lesson: Eat Well. Feel Well. Act Well.

Patience: A Virtue

I have not written this past week or so..... and I think that is mainly because I have not been doing what I am supposed to be doing. Of course by not writing I am negating the purpose of this blog, but after coming back from vacation I just got knocked off course.

This past week or so has been filled with Andes mints, Cookies and Cream Kisses, and Hot Tamales. Now of course, this is only counting the candy... much less everything else I ate.... In my head, I wasn't really thinking about it; I just let it happen. I also tried to convince myself that the light walking, and occasional sit up counted for my exercise. Then, tonight I listened to a talk given by Dieter F. Uchtdorf of the Quorum of the Twelve Apostles of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, and now I have learned a little more about what it takes to really do this. I am going to quote from his talk given at Priesthood Session of this past General Conference below. Maybe you will also see how this relates to how you balance your life with food and exercise.

Waiting can be hard. Children know it, and so do adults. We live in a world offering fast food, instant messaging, on-demand movies, and immediate answers to the most trivial or profound questions. We don’t like to wait. Some even feel their blood pressure rise when their line at the grocery store moves slower than those around them.

Patience—the ability to put our desires on hold for a time—is a precious and rare virtue. We want what we want, and we want it now. Therefore, the very idea of patience may seem unpleasant and, at times, bitter.

Nevertheless, without patience, we cannot please God; we cannot become perfect. Indeed, patience is a purifying process that refines understanding, deepens happiness, focuses action, and offers hope for peace.

As parents, we know how unwise it would be to indulge our children’s every desire. But children are not the only ones who spoil when showered with immediate gratification. Our Heavenly Father knows what good parents come to understand over time: if children are ever going to mature and reach their potential, they must learn to wait.

Because of this section, I understand how much learning to balance my food, learning to withstand a bag of candy, or just learning to have only one piece is so much bigger than just losing weight. It is about control and maturity. This isn't something that will only last till I am 150 lbs, but it needs to be a deepening process of my self-control.

I learned that patience was far more than simply waiting for something to happen—patience required actively working toward worthwhile goals and not getting discouraged when results didn’t appear instantly or without effort.

There is an important concept here: patience is not passive resignation, nor is it failing to act because of our fears. Patience means active waiting and enduring. It means staying with something and doing all that we can—working, hoping, and exercising faith; bearing hardship with fortitude, even when the desires of our hearts are delayed. Patience is not simply enduring; it is enduring well!

Impatience, on the other hand, is a symptom of selfishness. It is a trait of the self-absorbed. It arises from the all-too-prevalent condition called “center of the universe” syndrome, which leads people to believe that the world revolves around them and that all others are just supporting cast in the grand theater of mortality in which only they have the starring role.

From this, I learned that this past week was silly. I just need to work hard and keep working hard. I have to be patient, and keep plugging along.

Patience means staying with something until the end. It means delaying immediate gratification for future blessings.

You can see how the gospel goes hand in hand with being fit and making wise decisions on how we treat our body. When something is true, it is true in every aspect of your life.

I am now renewed to give up my bags of candy and my lazy mornings because as he says "delaying immediate gratification for future blessings". I want those future blessings.

Eating at Chilis

Tonight, we decided to use our coupon (we got it from giving blood) for an appentizer at Chilis. We got there, sat down and started to look at the menu. Now here in CA, the restaurants are required to have their nutitional info available for you. So my husband picked it up and perused the pages.....

Oh my goodness....

Almost everything on their menu was over 1200 calories; some items went up to 2000. I am only supposed to eat 1200-1500 calories a day!

So if you frequently eat out at places like chilis... watch out!

Back from Vacay

Well, I am back.... but not really back.

It has been hard getting back into my routine. I haven't really exercised in the last two days, and I have been eating many candies and sweets.

Overall the vacations, I lost about 3 lbs (so I gained one lb from this last one).

I am wondering yet again, if I am going where I am now? Do I really have to keep going? Can't I just sit back and relax? The logic in my head says, "Of course you should keep going, you feel great and you fit into clothes that you haven't been able to fit in for months". However, my emotions and laziness says, "you feel great, it will stay this way, you can stop, see the progress you have already made, that's good enough".

It's a hard battle, and I hope that I can get through it. Maybe I should just sit in front of my inspiration wall and just get to it. I guess I just need to mentally return from vacation.

In between vacation

So I thought that vacation would really do me in, but when I weighed myself here at home, I actually lost 4 lbs.... WOW!

So moral of the story. Don't stress.

I don't really know how I lost those 4 lbs, since I ate moon pies and orange cream icicles, but then again I ate lots of delicious salads, shrimp, veggies, and other good foods. I guess it all evens out.

Off I go again to another vacation. I hope this one is as good as the last :)